Mote and Light (from Prompt 16)

A void of sun, floating in this shineless cavern

holding on to the grip as I held to the notion you would return

to find me

to relieve and relive

the cool spring of our friendship

upon which we lifted

and hovered weightless

at one point in time, ascending

upward and nearing an illumination

that felt like you

and I cherished that hope as a yard void of insects

A continued affliction

that makes your smaller

to mean less

and meaningless

until the limbs

over-extended and distant

from the teasing invitation

so close to memory and artery

now fancies itself artillery

threatening the mote

thinning

weightless

suspended


Poetry and whatever else comes to mind based on my #icprompts on Instagram!

j

In Progress on a Busy Day

Check out #icprompts on Instagram. I’m sharing some of my photos as prompts. Coming soon to Idleblog too!

Percussion & Repetition x 11.

The formula to something ritualistic and guttural? I don’t know for sure, but I’ve had these phrases stuck in my head for a while. I used to record and experiment plenty with sound, but I haven’t had the chance recently. I do want to lay some tracks down for a few song ideas which are going to become a narrative. I should add, most of the work I do recording demos revolves around creating a story-based songs. I love that feeling of telling a tale that unfolds like rain drops collecting as a puddle; constant, rhythmic and somewhat unfiltered. This concept I’m tinkering with may be an offshoot of a demo album I recorded long ago, called Headphone Music for Nowhere People. It feels similar, perhaps it’s because I hear electric guitar and noise which feels like it belongs in a post-apocalypse, like in that old album.

The Flood, from Headphone Music for Nowhere People (2009)

I’ve thought about recording it on my lunch hour, since I have to go home and see how the cats are doing. Recording demos is really the last thing I should be doing so it doesn’t help to try to cram it in right now. I should probably reserve my lunch time for self care and time to pause momentarily. I’m troubled by my inability to slow down. I can’t blame the coffee either. The mind just wants to race and commit every spare thought to developing a story. Perhaps I need to convince myself once again, that writing and recording is my therapy, and one that yields continuous joy.

I’ll keep you posted,

j

All

All of these beautiful people

All of these people that walked the earth

And the salt of our tongue, resisted

The hall of demons in afterbirth

All of these people that walked the earth

All of these people that walked the earth

And did the Shaman run to the fire?

All of these people that walked the earth

And did the hollow gram of desire

Find you the consequence of your worth?

All of these people that walked the earth

All of these people that walked the earth

You find me not in the short carousel

You find me spiraling down the well

With all these people that walked the earth

Your dream as common as prairie dirt

And I am certain it’s what we deserve

All of these people that walked the earth

All of these people that walked the earth

All of these people that walked the earth

Noteworthy 7.12.19

Happy Friday folks! Heading into the weekend with some links to look forward to!

  1. Let’s start off with these breathtaking award winning images from the Audubon Photography Awards. It’s a nice change of pace to immerse into such beautifully crafted photos during the workweek. Definitely will be on my mind for a while.
  2. Shoutout to playwright Dana Lynn Formby, who shares with us her award winning play  “Johnny 10 Beers’ Daughter,” thanks to The American Playbook Podcast. I got to meet Dana at a playwriting conference and she is just a great soul and fellow Wyomingite, so I’ll be listening this weekend: So should you! 
  3. NPR broke my heart this morning with this article about service members living in fear of their family members getting deported. Men and Women who commit to serving this country should not have to worry about coming back to an empty home due to deportation. Surely, there must be more pressing matters for our nation than to hunt down the Navy officer’s Amá, or abuela. 
  4. My friend Rebecca shared this piece about dancers and the massive obstacles to becoming a professional dancer. I nodded through most of it as I felt it made sense to us playwrights, filmmakers, or any creative folk pursuing some kind of career in our day and age. It talks of a few ways to make inroads, and keeping your chin up.
  5. This week we lost a major creative light in the world. Mr. João Gilberto passed on, leaving a legacy of work that shaped the timeless and spellbinding sound that is bossa nova. I’m hoping to write at length about his work in due time, but for now, I’d just like to write that his songs helped me cope with some difficult times of transition and growth, and I could not be more grateful for the magic he brought to us. I could share the whole of Chega de Saudade, a work that guided me to better spirits, productive writing spells, and optimism when I worked at the cemetery. Instead, I will leave you with his rendition of Jobim’s perennial masterpiece Aguas de Março. I have listened to this track at least twice a week for the last six years. There is so much hope and possibility and introspection in his rendition of the song that it breaks my heart and puts it back together too. Rest in peace, Senhor. Thank you for the new sound.

Anyway, here’s a picture of Oscar licking the inside of this container. Happy weekend friends.

Make art, make haste.

j

Revamped Creative Drive kicks off in 2019!

My 2019 days have been filled with upward stumbles in the creative department and good cheer. I hope the rest of the year follows this trend!

We’ll see about getting a new logo, this’ll do for now!

I had the pleasure of revamping my tentative podcast experiment known as Creative Drive into a proper podcast production with the help of my awesome wife, Maddie! It’s so nice to be able to find something that we can do together that’s not only fun to do, but a good opportunity to learn as we go. So far, we have two episodes to our credit and it feels right. Creative Drive started to sate the need to document and produce content on the regular. As we come upon the one year anniversary of this podcast experiment, I wanted to start investing more time and energy into something that I know will yield a positive message for us, and for anyone listening. In a nutshell, this iteration of the show will still cover my trial and error process of maintaining a decent work/life/creativity balance, as well as a brief conversation with Maddie on book and other content recommendations. I’ll still be doing some mini pep talks for working class creatives as well, all packaged in a short pod under thirty minutes. we have a lot to learn, but I couldn’t be more pleased with the first two episodes.

Yep, that’s it: Our living room setup Saturday night when we talked about gratitude journals and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. We had such a blast! It’s not much, but we have to start somewhere!
Now that I’m not forcing my gear to handle 4K video, I can actually work on my laptop and enjoy editing these shows. Just puts a smile on my face.

Coming from the exhausting nature of wedding videography, I am cautiously building new routines and I don’t want to overwork myself. It’s not about that right now. I don’t want to bite more than I can chew, I want this new goal to grow organically. It’s taken us so long to get into a comfortable work/life balance, the last thing I want to do is have the podcast or any new project upset the order of things. Let’s ease the creativity into the mix and we’ll go from there.

There’s never been a better time to do this. So here I am, trying to make this shit work. It’s not much, but the little increments inspire me to do more. I am free but overwhelmed, tired but leaping with joy, longing and aiming. Most of all, I’m desperately trying to be here, in the present, loving every goddamn second. It’s late and I have to get up early.

Don’t forget to get started on your happiness. We got this.

Much love,

j

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For all other options, check out our page on Anchor!

The open cave welcomes joy and everything else.

On a Friday

full of freedom

I sang behind the wheel

The black days now behind me

I look forward to the miles ahead

And as the chorus left my lips

and I waved at the sorrowful faces of my neighbors

I rolled down the window to bathe

in the careless dance of the wind

I held the comforting song

in the cavern of my mouth

This cave soaring

above the speed limit

that held the wonder of my tone

The tune and wind and sunshine were a veil

and it made me feel an endless bliss

Just as the wasp slipped in at fifty miles an hour and into my mouth

and I rolled down

toward the black.

-Jaime Alejandro

Back from hiatus: New Addendum Episode!

Dear WordPressers,

Wow, it’s been months since I’ve been here. I missed it. I started a new job, so it turned the routine upside down for a short while. This whole staying creative while having a full time job and a small business is kinda difficult, but alas, the content is back! I’m so thrilled to start recording again, and equally stoked to share with you the new episode format, as well as musings on how to keep making art as a working class person.

Also, what are you all working on lately? Send me a comment and I’d love to give shout-outs on the podcast!

Make art, make haste.

-Jaime Alejandro

Listen here or check out the Addendum home page for other options (Itunes, etc!)

No outline today. Progress!

There’s been very little activity this week, but what I did put together is documented on the ramblings at Addendum.

I’m trying to be less precious about every little recording I make. Every word I write. It’s less of a problem for me when I’m writing, but the process of recording audio is so dear to me that it’s been super difficult to me to get on the Anchor app every few days and just ramble. Ever since I started the Addendum recordings, my defense mechanism has been outlines and notes. It’s like my inner monologue is reminding me that if I am going to document my every little thought like an idiot, at least be organized about it. Today I made my first recordings without an outline. Progress!

Addendum is starting to feel as laid back as I originally intended it to be. So that’s pretty neat. If you wanna hear the ramblings of a creative with a dayjob, or you need a prompt about a wedding ring, check it out!

Make Art. Make haste!

-Jaime Alejandro

Will transparency yield more creativity?

I’m trying to be more transparent about my process and who I am. Not just to the outside world, but to myself. Sometimes, the default choice is to keep an opinion to myself, keep quiet. It has served me well a few times, but the healthier option is to be more open and find that eagerness to communicate. I believe if I’m honest with myself, that honesty will reflect on the page or any other creative goal.

This is what it’s all about: not just refining your voice, but find the decibels that work for you. Currently, the recordings on Addendum have been incredibly helpful in gauging where I stand on this journey. The Anchor app is probably my favorite thing in the world right now. It’s so versatile and fun, and the format really challenges me in the best way. I’m trying to record as often as possible, voicing my approach on writing, as well as work/life balance. I have a long way to go, but it’s a tremendous feeling to reach out into the nebulous internet and advocate for something that is so important to me: the fight to stay creative and positive in a world that seems unwelcoming.

Most of the time, these ideas and notions just collect dust in my head and eventually fade. Unvoiced and unfulfilled. I don’t want that to become my default setting. Starting these recordings is allowing me to see through pessimism, and is helping me get back to that purest love for the creative process! What I am getting at is this: please don’t have any reservations about starting that next story, that poem, that podcast, that short film, that song that you have had in your heart for ages. To bring positive creative energy into the world is scary, but it’s something the world needs now more than ever.

As for me, I’ll be ready to start doing interviews for the proper show, The Talking Text Podcast, most likely next week. Wish me luck!

Make art. Make haste.

-Jaime Alejandro.

Visit my novice ramblings at https://anchor.fm/addendum?at=2423609